Irrational Foolish

Irrational Foolish
Everything you tell me now ... there are just words with no meaning. I didn't forget, and I will never be able to forget what happened between us ... nonsense... you act and think in a perverse way just for youself. You insist to keep me just for you but I don't feel you just for me. In my mind arises an horizon of indifference or at least ... this is what I tend to believe. I build a defensive shield between you and me ... otherwise I just don't have the power to understand you anymore.
What is happening to me? It hurts me physical but it starts from inside. I am just an emotional child, affected by what happens around me ... I blame you for all the suffering you caused me ... for everything I suffered and I still suffer. Perhaps I tend to ask worthless things, now I am just confused blocked in a world that seems to have no sense.
Now my tears are too rose ... colour that flows from the depth of my drab soul ...
Once you painted me in the shades of love ... we were dreaming mounted on the rainbow of the immortality ... of the eternal love ...
Now I walk through the night with the flash stired up, searching the heart you broke ... Now there are just words lost by the wind .... burnt by the sun ... drowned by the rain and everything I spell seems to be now so irrational ...
It's so strange the way I keep you in my mind even when I don't try to think, when my mind is invaded by nothing. I don't even know what I am writting ... I waste the ink ... I swot the brush of my suffering, sharing to this piece of paper nothing more than mortal remains ... than fragments of my desires ... Nothing has any sense and I smile ... but that is just apparently because inside of me that is my way of cursing you ... of cursing you tacitly to happines ...
You hurt me but I wish only the best for you ... I want to cry, but you to laugh .... I want to be quiet, but you to sing ... I want to die, but you to fly!
I ADORE YOU! Overwhelming happiness ... that's all I want for you ... why? ... because I still love you irrational foolish !!!
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# Posted on Saturday, 05 April 2008 at 7:45 AM
Edited on Saturday, 05 April 2008 at 12:14 PM

My Mood At This Moment Represented By ...

My Mood At This Moment Represented By ...
Mariah Carey - Without you

No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there
But then I let you go
And now it's only fair
That I should let you know
What you should know

I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore

Well I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore
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# Posted on Friday, 04 April 2008 at 7:31 PM

So Many Unknown Things

So Many Unknown Things
"You taught me that being natural means being human ... you taught me that you can't always be a shinning star but you can always try not to be just one more cloud on the sky ... you taught me that the smile of a simple child is like the blossom of a flower ... you taught me to see the essence of the simple things and to smile when I feel the touch of the sunrays ... you taught me that I can always fly if I just believe I can ... you taught me that the friendship is a rainbow turned into reality ... you taught me that the language of our love is like the unstopable game of the butterflies ... you taught me so many things and then you left silently forsaking me in a moor of confusion...
Yes you left as a cruel demon and you taught me without intention one more thing I hoped I would never be taught ... you taught me that I am too innocent to still believe everything you taught me
Endless pain, rain of tears, screams of inside agitation, an ocean full of burning dreams turned into dust, of innocent feelings turned into ashes, yells of my soul, seldom beats of my heart and... it just broke itself ... no horizon ...
I learnt that someone can throw away al the storms from your life just with a warm sight ... I learnt that someone can change your whole night only by holding you in his arms ... I learnt that only with a smile someone can turn your cloudy day into a sunny day ... I learnt that life can be played as a chess game only in white and black when you don't have that someone near you ... I learnt that being sincere rise you above everyone and everything because everyone has the bravery of telling lies but not everyone has the bravery of telling the truth ...
Life made me realise that I will have part of many desillusions but everytime I have to go on, to pass over and to keep my eyes rised ... Life made me realise that some dreams can be turned into reality if I have faith respect and feelings ... Life made me realise that I will never be alone because my true friends will always be there for me changing my world ... Life made me realise that I always have to choose at least between two ways and that actually I draw my own destiny and that I am the only guilty for my mistakes .... Life made me realise that I aways have to be myself and only this way I won't be just a shadow among an army of shadows on this Earth but a coloured anxious light with real feelings among that army of shadows ... Life made me realise that loving someone sincere is the purest feeling and ... Life made me realise one more thing ... that I wilI still be taught many things, that I will still learn many things and that it will still make me realise many things for all my life ... because there are still so many unknown things"


This is for Carlo, my special friend, who taught me maybe without knowing so many things... I learnt from him that is important to smile in every moment of your life and that hapiness comes from the people around us, that life goes fastly and we have to enjoy every moment, that in a true friendship you have to keep just the persones who deserve to be there, that sometimes the things don't work as you expect but you always must find the inside power to move on without regrets, that we don't have to judge a book by its cover and that the appearences can be tricky, ... and the most important thing I will never forget ...he taught me never to be afraid of what I feel but of what I don't feel ...
Thank you Carlo once again for being my friend ... Thank you for giving me true lessons of life ... Thank you for your sincerity ... Thank you for every word you ever told me ... Thank you for every thought you have about me ... Thank you for so many things :)
You know you have all my respect and my entire friendship
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# Posted on Sunday, 30 March 2008 at 6:42 PM
Edited on Monday, 31 March 2008 at 5:42 AM

Shadows of destiny

Shadows of destiny
My tears are shivering souless
My voice is lost of so much coldness
My passion whispers something just for you
A word that you don't even know
You don't remeber my name
And I remain embraced by the darkness
In a world where the wind breathes endless
Telling me the mystery of the survial
I step on the shadows of that memories
I wake up in the cruelty of the morning
And the rain drops little sparkles in my hair
I feel a pain and the wishes make me remember...
I wished I could hear just one last time that sweet words that give me thrills
I wished I would never loose the burning trace of your sight
I wished I would never loose the smell of our desire
I wished I would never loose the soft touch of your kiss
I just wished I could tell you that my entire world were you ...
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# Posted on Sunday, 23 March 2008 at 6:16 PM
Edited on Monday, 24 March 2008 at 1:54 PM

This is for...

Who deserves it ... =)
This is for...
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# Posted on Thursday, 20 March 2008 at 7:37 PM
Edited on Saturday, 12 April 2008 at 11:04 AM